Hello again. It feels like this blog is being reborn (again), and it may be unclear at first where I am going with this. At this time, I have been feeling a lot of challenge with continuing to work at the community health center clinic. They approved my religious exemption to receiving the COVID-19 vaccines, which is a topic I may share more about on a future post.

I have been revisiting the idea of leaving the clinic anyways. Mostly, it feels like an energy drain for me, on account of how the work feels out of alignment with my values. I have maybe denied that, or justified that for too long, and maybe it is past time, and that is what I am feeling. I’m feeling that as exhaustion: an inability to focus, especially on reading or organizing the house or my room. But when I’m looking at my paystubs, and imagining how I would find clients and complete all the steps of starting the business that replaces the dollars of my income as an entrepreneur, the vision quickly dissolves into a seeming fantasy.

I do earn a comfortable living working 3 days a week in the system. It was enough to qualify for a mortgage on a new home that I now live in with 4 housemates. And it was enough to travel to Hawaii on two occasions for a dance festival, and to North Carolina for an important community gathering.

So for now, a real confession is that I have been exhausted, and that I need to clean up my self-care routines and boundaries first. When I have more room and energy, I plan to share more thoughts on the unfolding current events and about my own journey. There is more to come, to be sure!